I am so sorry that I have been away from your sites. I am sorry for neglecting you. I am a sucky person. I know this.
Remember the me that was always stopping by and saying "hi" to you? Remember always being witty and clever and having something fun to say? Remember me for those times. Remember me for being a blogging psycho.
I am not that person right now. Why? Because the new meds are pathetic and my body is going in withdrawal from the past meds and my body is rejecting the new meds and it hurts. I throw up all the time and it sucks the big dildo. That was nicely said, I think!
I am also applying for some grants and I am vigilant about this right now. I am passionate about starting a photography business. I know that I am not the best and that I am not even close to professional right now but I have classes that I can take that will help with lighting, shadows, sun. The things that I hate most in photography. Among other things that I need coaching on. Of course.
And my daughter is starting back to school and of course, I am in a state of denial. This is her last year in elementary school. I cannot handle this. I am crying A LOT! Blame it on the meds. Blame it on the fact that I cry EVERY...SINGLE...YEAR my daughter goes to school. She can irritate me very much during the summer and I have days where I want to send her back to school yesterday but when push comes to shove and she really is going to school......I have a melt down. I'm crying right now. I cannot stop the tears. I am completely pathetic.
I am pathetic and sucky. That's nice to know.
Yet, I am happy that I have a goal in life. Whoop-Whoop for me having a goal. Never thought this day would come! Give it up to me!
So this blog is officially on lock down until I can pull it together enough. I am sorry. I hope you don't forget me. Please don't forget me!!!!
I will be back soon. It won't be long. I promise. Let me get through the fact that my 10yr old will be 11 in a few short, short months.
And if anyone can tell me where the hell summer went, please, explain to me where the hell my summer WENT!. Now if only the school months will go this fast and the nasty ass cold weather that is soon to come.......OMG.....SNOW......I didn't even think about SNOW until now......ugg. I'm gonna go throw up again.
I miss you! I will see you soon!