Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Bad Day.

Yesterday was a day that I wish I could just close my eyes and it will all go away. Push the rewind button or click my sparkled red shoes together and say a mantra. However, I am not running from an evil witch or hanging with friends that have tails or straw for brains.

Yesterday, my father-in-law, had a massive heart attack and he went to meet his maker. He is catching the biggest fish in heaven with his dad sitting next to him with a fishing pole in hand. And he left us and he went to heaven. And we are devastated.

My husband is numb. My daughter is confused and torn. I am comforting and nurturing them with big tears in my eyes and a heavy heart.

My saving Grace is this. I spoke about God a lot with my Father-in-law. And I know for a fact, without a doubt in my mind, that he was NOT afraid to die. He looked forward to meeting Jesus and shaking his hand and he was anxious to see all the loved ones that went before him. And he had an amazing relationship with God. He was not afraid and there was no "unknown" in his mind. He knew that Heaven awaited him. He knew that it was full of big fish. He knew that it was a place with Golden Roads. No more stress. No more fear. No more loneliness. No more sadness. No more pain. He knew that there was never gloomy days or cold winters. He knew. And this brings me so much joy and so much happiness. I am okay because of this.

He was only 63yrs old. And he lived a full life. It was full of happiness, sadness, stress, fear, laughter, smiles and sometimes pain. He left this world and we are left with empty hearts. In time we will smile. In time we will think of him and not cry. In time. Funny how time will heal us yet time is what we yearn for the most right now. More time. One more minute with him.

We saw him on Monday. We hugged him. We told him we loved him. He did not go to Heaven with any doubts. He was loved.

We need strength and understanding the most right now. Pray for these things for us.

God Speed Dave. You will forever be missed. And thank you for the signs. You know what I am talking about.
Rest in Peace (at least until I get there!) We love you so very much.
Love,
Your disobedient and favorite daughter-in-law.

22 comments:

Kori said...

Oh honey I am so sorry. I'll continue to pray for you and the family through this time. And know that you are always in my thoughts. If there is anything I can do, know that I am here.

Kel said...

Oh, sweety! I'm so very sorry for your loss, for your pain. You and your family are in my prayers!

~K

A Buns Life said...

I am so, so sorry....You all are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there and hold each other close.

sltbee69 said...

I'm so sorry for your family's loss. Even though it's such a sad event, I'm glad to read that you are finding some sort of peace about it. ((HUGS))

Stacy said...

I am so sorry for your family's loss, Krissy. That is so very sad, but your post about him was so very nice and full of love. It is hard when they go before their time, my FIL died at 62. Far too early. :'(

Michelle said...

So sorry for your loss.
*hugs* & prayers.

Kathryn said...

Oh hon, I am so sorry for your loss. I am so glad that you all saw him just a short time ago and told him you love him. What a gift.

You are wise in being happy for him but I know the pain is still there.

Prayers for you and your family.

Patois said...

How terrible. I hope you find much strength within each other and much joy in knowing he's at peace.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

Oh, I am so sorry for your family's loss. He was so young! You all are in my prayers. This was a beautiful tribute post, Krissy.

Robin said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you. So sorry for your loss.

MoziEsmé said...

I'm so sorry! God be with you and your family...

Rhonda said...

I'm so sorry for your loss!

Blessings From Above said...

I am so sorry to hear about your father in law. Please know I will be praying in Ohio for your family...specifically for strength, understanding and peace that only the Lord can provide.

((HUGS))

Momisodes said...

Krissy, I am so sorry to hear about your family's loss. He was so young (my father's age). Please know your family is in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

Brooke said...

I cannot imagine. It is so helpful to know God and to feel his comfort. So true what you said about "time".

Bad Momma said...

So sorry for your loss. Stopped by from Dysfunctional Mom's place to give you a virtual hug.

Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry for yours and your family's loss. Your FIL sounded like one heck of a good guy. :( I'm sure he will be sadly missed and never forgotten.
I'm glad he was at peace with all in his life, with knowing he was loved and cherished by his family and with going to meet his maker as well.
I will definitely keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.
May you find the strength and answers you all need.

HUGS!!

xoxoxox

Christine said...

I am so sorry. What a huge lass for your family.

Tara R. said...

Krissy, I am so very sorry! You and your family are in my prayers.

Mr Lady said...

Oh, god. I'm SO sorry for you and your family. Ugh. Take care.

retardedrugrat said...

Ohhh, I'm SO sorry to hear this! We lost a very good friend of ours the day before Thanksgiving, very unexpectedly, so I feel and share your family's pain right now.

You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.

Grandy said...

I'm so sorry! I'm sorry for so much!! I'm sending hugs your way from California.