Ode to my daughter.....

Dear sweet hormonal, lovable girl....

You are so devious at times that I could just punch myself right in the kisser. However, in the very next second, you look at me with those beautiful blues and pouty lips and I melt into you once again. You are devious because you know that your mother is a complete sucker for you.

I can be mad as hell one minute and then consumed by your charm the next. Your charisma and personality radiate love, compassion, fun, laughter and wickedness. I don't know a person who isn't in love with your humor and quick wit. You are your mothers daughter.

This hormonal stage is going to make me pull out every strand of hair out of my head and I fear your dad is dead serious about a chastity belt he's been on ebay searching and bars on your window. Your eye rolling and mouthiness has gotten you in more trouble these past few months then ever before. Your determination to fight with me or to argue is certainly going to land you grounded for life and me in a padded cell. And even though you have heard the word and know the word "NO", you have coincidentally forgotten what it means. Your manners must have been thrown out the window and replaced with crabbiness.

Yet. You still have those killer eyes that make me weep. And you still have your dad and mom wrapped around your little pinky finger. I won't even get into your grandparents and aunts and uncles because we all know that to them, you can do no wrong.

I have watched you sleep like so many nights before. You are growing up and I don't like it much. I miss my chubby little girl with the sweetest of hugs and kisses. You still give the best hugs ever, but I don't have chubby little legs wrapped around my waist any longer. You are almost as tall as me now. Yet I am so excited for your future. I know with all my heart that you are going to make a difference. You have so much light in you that sometimes it's blinding.

I know that you are full of wisdom however, you do not know all. I argue and fight with you over the stupidest of things because you have a sassy-frass attitude that you are always right. You got that from your father.

A menopausal mom and a hormonal daughter are like oil and water but a mom's love for her daughter is a bond that I will never share with anyone else. You are my girl.....

I can sit here and complain about all your hormonal episodes and trust me....there are days that I do. But today....I sit here with tears in my eyes and hurt in my heart.

Today...I read of a sweet baby girl that went to go live with Jesus. She left her weeping parents behind so she could breathe freely and struggle no more. I am so stingy...because I wish she was still here with her parents. Although I don't know the hurt they have, I can understand it. Because I could never imagine living a day without you.

And as I sit here, I am listening to your dads pager and I hear of a baby that is in full cardiac arrest and I can sense the panic in the EMT's voices as they try so desperately to breath life back into a infant. A baby. And my heart is in my stomach and my tears are running down my face. The fear and loneliness these parents must feel right now is so scary to me. I can only pray that God wraps his Heavenly arms around these parents and angels.

So. Today my sweet hormonal daughter. I will not argue with you about wearing makeup even though you will not wear makeup in 5th grade and I will not argue about buying you a bra story for another day. I will just sit here and remember how lucky I am and how blessed my life is and I will cry for these families. Yet I will always be grateful for you sweet girl.

I love you my skeeter butt munchkin butt......
Mom.